I'm back !

Kesian kau blog....terpinggir lame ye.... So what make me decided to write again? Because i'm bored,yes.....but mostly i realize this blog contain my life story,kind like diary but u know easier to write. I think now days generation forget how to use pen or pencil,typing is much easier.

I watch how much i grow in this blog..not spiritually,but physically .Yes,i finally accept the fact that i am a plus size woman,no longer in denial.I shop at plus size store.... i admit i lost all my self confidence . I shut myself,i don't want to meet anyone.

I hate being like this,but my attempt to lose weight have been a failure again and again,i grew bigger and bigger... I am lost and disappointed with myself..

I miss Lumi so much....i cry sometime,my mom and me still can't get over her..BUt we have a new cat named chinta who i love dearly...but no one will ever replace Lumi...She watch me grow,be there for me whenever i need her...I hope she's happy now.. she suffer enough..I will never forget you my baby....

yeKK.....

Ok,siap sedia smua mungkin akan geli dengan post nie...

So hari ni dengan semangat baru maka dengang kembang kuncupnye hidung melangkah kembali ke gym yg cuti sebab well u know,Chinese New Year..tapi hari ni makan lunch agak lewat,sebab,urm2,bangun lewat,so pukul brape tu dirahsiakn takut kot2 mak2 terbace dan muntah darah,memang reject buat menantu..So,berbekal mp3 teman stiaku untuk berspinning kt gym 2,lagu pertama ,bukan mainsmgat lagi kayuh skuat hati,lagu kdua smngat waja,ketiga....dah mula pening2 lalat,lagu keempatan blueekkkk....i throw out in my mouth....yekk...lame jugk munth 2 ade dlm mulut sbb x kn nk telan..yekk...so cri la tisu n ludah kt situ...x byk munth tpi sumpah blackout kejap and kaki gigil2,padan muke x warm up dlu and common knowledge makanan digest dlm dua jam pon aku lupakan..rase mcm x larat nak balik,ni gara2 laxative yg over dose smlm ni...balik2 bilik,lari2 pergi toilet....n buang lgi....mmg rse dehydrate sgt.....haish...

siksenye nk krus